everything sucks

not the best way to start off the year but alright

For the past few months I haven't been going to school, one reason being for the sake of my mental health and the second reason being that. I literally have no way of even getting to school. I won't be getting into it any further. but it's all my fault.

I had hopes for this year, I wanted to improve myself and actually attempt to make a new friend at school or reconnect with my current ones who I don't really see that often .. but what fucking happens? I get pulled from school to get homeschooled. but since my dad and his girlfriend are useless I gotta do online school. But when covid hit I didn't learn SHIT from online school. I was already struggling in school anyway because I'm genuinely slow and stupid.

I seriously don't see any hope for this year. or for me at all .. I was so excited to work on myself too

I don't really know what to do anymore. All I can do is accept the fact that I'm going to have an awful future.